Public vs. Private

Well man! Life has been just rough. No job still and we're not sure what we're going to do as far as where Charity's going to Kindergarten. Some days I get so frustrated with the decision making process, I just want to keep her home or homeschool her. I honestly think this is one of the hardest decision I've ever made.

Do I take on a full-time career and send her to private, Christian school were it seems the education will be better? Or do I work minimum hours, be home when she gets home from school, not sacrifice time I could be spending with her and send her to free public school? I've thought several times I need to do a MySpace poll and see what my friends and family thinks, but then I think, this is something I have to work out in my head and heart.

Today I called Gower (the public school we're zoned for) and got some information. Not too helpful. 670 kids, K-4th grade. 7 Kindergartens. 1 teacher to 18-20 students. We won't meet the teacher until the first day. I did some online research and looks like in 2007 they we're below the state average on their testing scores. But I really don't know what all that means. Of course, what I know from Nashville is only word-of-mouth. But it has a completely different feel.

This has caused so much diversion in our family. I know Dave just doesn't want to "waste" the money. He has no problem sending her to Gower. And I very much have a problem sending her there, as well as sending her to Nashville Christian when he disagrees. Wow! The stress this has caused. I know at times in our marriage, I've thought it we can get through this, than we can get through anything. Well, here we are again. Completely on different sides. We've fasted and prayed. It's just pulling us apart and neither of us knows the right answer. We've asked God to show us clearly, but we've yet to see the writing on the wall.

I just can't wait until we're over this hurdle . . . out of this valley . . . onto the mountain top. I've decided I can take the valley, but I hate the valleys that effect my little Charity!