Growing Weary

I am super tired. I didn't sleep hardly a wink last night. Dave got up around 4:30am and I was lying there wide awake. "One of those nights?" He asked. Oh yes, and in the worst way.

Not sure what my problem is. Though I do know sometimes when my anxiety hits an all-time high, it negatively effects my ability to sleep. I have been in the mully grubs lately. And this job situation, just gets the best of me some days. I wouldn't wanted to miss Charity's first day of school for any job. I just have to remind myself this is the first week. A job will come! Uuuuuggg!

But, I do thank God Gramma isn't having to go through what I'm going through. Charity is making it soooo hard to go to school. She fusses and cries most of the morning and then she's horrible after school. I know she completely exhausted with the new schedule. But she's been asleep no later than 8:30pm every night, except tonight it was closer to 9 (making me all stressed out for what tomorrow will hold). I can't wait until it's darker earlier and this "new" schedule happens like clockwork!

Despite her "cranky" streak, she did an awesome drop-off outside the building this morning instead of inside. We're slowly inching towards "total" car drop off, where she'll just jump out of the car and walk inside to her classroom by herself, much different than that first day when I was beginning to wonder if I was going to get to leave! And pick-up this afternoon happened without a hitch. And she loved it!! She was so stressed out about it, but of course, it was fine!! Now, if we just don't have to hear, "I don't want to go to school" a hundred times between the time she leaves in the afternoon until the time she goes in the morning, it would be awesome. But somehow, I think we're going to make it through.

For now, I'm going to get some sleep . . . I know that will help a whole lot too!