This song is so me, every word. I shared it will Mr. Cook and I'm so glad he feels the same way.
True love, y'all.
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Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Date Night with Daddy!
August 3rd, today would have been Gramma's 70th birthday. I can't think of a better way to celebrate her amazing life than these two going out and enjoying special time together. Our church hosted the evening compete with dinner at The Old Spaghetti Factory, a stop at the candy store and a carriage ride. And I even got some pictures sent to me! Priceless.
Friday, August 2, 2013
Thursday, July 18, 2013
This girl is 10!!
1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10!!
She has blessed our lives so much these last 10 years. We are so happy she's ours. The next 10 years may have their ups and downs, but that's life and I'm so glad Jesus picked us to share it with this blessed creation He made!
Happy 10th Birthday, Charity!
"I will praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your words are wonderful, I know that full well!" Psalm 139:14 (NIV)
Saturday, May 11, 2013
Summer Wedding
Is there anything more beautiful than a summer wedding, I mean, really? I know I'm sappy like that. But I LOOOOOOVE them! And I could not have been more blessed and honored to attend this lovely union. This girl deserves the absolutely gorgeous, perfect day it turned out to be!
Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. D. Stavely!
Perfect weather, charming venue, whimsical details, scrumptious meal, fabulous friends, stunning bride . . . an extra special wedding day!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Happy 90th Birthday to my Wonderful Grandfather!
Here's an article from The Foxboro Report about my "Papa Bridgham", who just celebrated his 90th birthday! Sure wish I was there, but so happy my family was able to get together and celebrate the patriarch in our Bridgham family.
Ninety years young
Family, friends celebrate as Charlie Bridgham still going strong
By Christine Igo Freeman
Published: Thursday, July 21, 2011 9:04 AM EDT
Charlie Bridgham, center, celebrates his 90th birthday at his former home -- now his daughter Judy’s home at 4 Mill Street -- surrounded by his children, from left: son Gary Bridgham of East Machias, Maine; daughter Judy Fraher of Foxboro; son Eric Bridgham of West Bridgewater; daughter Donna Kemp of Rockland; and daughter Janis Eastwood of Sarasota, Fla. More than 100 guests of all ages joined Charlie for a big party. (Photo by Christine Igo Freeman)
What do you give a man for his 90th birthday? If the man is Charlie Bridgham and you are one of his five children, you plan a backyard party for over 100 guests to delight him with their "presence."
That's just what happened last Saturday afternoon at 4 Mill Street. With tunes such as "Moonlight Serenade" by the Glenn Miller Orchestra and songs by Frank Sinatra filling the hot, summer air; family and friends of all ages celebrated Charlie Bridgham's latest milestone in nine decades of living.
For a man who founded a judo school, started skiing when he was in his 70s and exercises at least five days a week, this World War II Veteran claims, "I should have something else to do."
In other words, despite a heart attack in May of 2010 and knee surgery five years ago, Bridgham continues to keep moving. In fact, he worked out at his judo school the morning of his birthday party.
Charles Henry Bridgham was born on July 20, 1921 in Vermont. He is the youngest of four children and the only boy. He found his way to Foxboro after serving in World War II as a B17 crew chief navigator, drawing maps and flying over Africa. His parents and sister Thelma had moved to Foxboro, so after the war, he came here to live with them.
So began his life as a citizen of our small town.
Little did he know at the time, but there was someone else waiting for him in Foxboro besides his immediate family. The classic story of the girl next door with a slight twist, Jane Dodge was actually the girl across Mechanic Street.
It all began with a dashing black and white framed photo of Bridgham in his pilot's uniform. Jane Dodge first noticed that photo on the neighbor's piano when she was 14 years old and rumor has it there were often lipstick marks on the glass. When the man in the photo arrived in Foxboro, the two met and the rest is history.
The couple raised their five children in Foxboro moving to different houses over the years. There are three daughters -- Donna Kemp, Judy Fraher and Janice Eastwood -- and two sons, Gary and Eric Bridgham. The house on Mill Street where last Saturday's party was held now belongs to daughter Judy, who bought it from brother Eric, who bought it from his parents. The house, as Eric ,explains, "has become the family homestead."
In fact, when Charlie and Jane bought the house on Mill Street in 1979, the Curry family lived next door. The Bridgham's and Curry's are cousins.
When Charlie was approximately 40 years old, he began taking judo lessons at the Attleboro YMCA. Since that time, he has inspired several of his children to also take judo and even founded his own judo school at the old Pratt School in East Foxboro.
For the past 35 years, San Machi has been home to the Foxboro Judo Club. Currently the club has several Senseis including Bridgham and Bob Anton who runs it.
At the party were some of Bridgham's former judo students including Sara Jobin and her brother Andy Jobin. Sara started taking lessons first, but when she came home after judo class and started flipping her brother around the house, Andy quickly decided he better start taking lessons too. According to Sara, "He [Charlie] taught us so much more than judo. He taught us how to behave, be respectful and be a good person."
Al and Bill Rollins are two of Bridgham's nephews. Both shared several memories of their Uncle Charlie. Al Rollins remembers how as a boy he always liked planes and when his Uncle Charlie returned home, they both joined the Civil Air Patrol. Bill Rollins adds, "My uncle is a combination of Clark Kent and Harrison Ford. Mild-mannered on the surface with lots of adventure underneath."
Both talked about their uncle the golfer. Al explains, "Uncle Charlie plays golf too. He says he doesn't lose the balls anymore because they don't go far enough and if he does hit a ball too far, it's no good because then he can't see it."
Al still lives in New England up in Vermont, the state where his uncle and mother were born. Bill lives out on the west coast in California.
Sadly, Bridgham has been without his wife for 20 years. They were married for more than 40 years before her death. He now enjoys sharing his life with a close friend, Ann Parlato, who he met at a family wedding.
Speaking of family, Bridgham has five children, eleven grandchildren, four great grandchildren and several nieces and nephews.
When one of his many guests told him he looked wonderful, Bridgham responded with a smile, "I am wonderful!"
And he is.
Link: http://www.foxbororeporter.com/articles/2011/07/22/features/9910923.txt
Ninety years young
Family, friends celebrate as Charlie Bridgham still going strong
By Christine Igo Freeman
Published: Thursday, July 21, 2011 9:04 AM EDT
Charlie Bridgham, center, celebrates his 90th birthday at his former home -- now his daughter Judy’s home at 4 Mill Street -- surrounded by his children, from left: son Gary Bridgham of East Machias, Maine; daughter Judy Fraher of Foxboro; son Eric Bridgham of West Bridgewater; daughter Donna Kemp of Rockland; and daughter Janis Eastwood of Sarasota, Fla. More than 100 guests of all ages joined Charlie for a big party. (Photo by Christine Igo Freeman)
What do you give a man for his 90th birthday? If the man is Charlie Bridgham and you are one of his five children, you plan a backyard party for over 100 guests to delight him with their "presence."
That's just what happened last Saturday afternoon at 4 Mill Street. With tunes such as "Moonlight Serenade" by the Glenn Miller Orchestra and songs by Frank Sinatra filling the hot, summer air; family and friends of all ages celebrated Charlie Bridgham's latest milestone in nine decades of living.
For a man who founded a judo school, started skiing when he was in his 70s and exercises at least five days a week, this World War II Veteran claims, "I should have something else to do."
In other words, despite a heart attack in May of 2010 and knee surgery five years ago, Bridgham continues to keep moving. In fact, he worked out at his judo school the morning of his birthday party.
Charles Henry Bridgham was born on July 20, 1921 in Vermont. He is the youngest of four children and the only boy. He found his way to Foxboro after serving in World War II as a B17 crew chief navigator, drawing maps and flying over Africa. His parents and sister Thelma had moved to Foxboro, so after the war, he came here to live with them.
So began his life as a citizen of our small town.
Little did he know at the time, but there was someone else waiting for him in Foxboro besides his immediate family. The classic story of the girl next door with a slight twist, Jane Dodge was actually the girl across Mechanic Street.
It all began with a dashing black and white framed photo of Bridgham in his pilot's uniform. Jane Dodge first noticed that photo on the neighbor's piano when she was 14 years old and rumor has it there were often lipstick marks on the glass. When the man in the photo arrived in Foxboro, the two met and the rest is history.
The couple raised their five children in Foxboro moving to different houses over the years. There are three daughters -- Donna Kemp, Judy Fraher and Janice Eastwood -- and two sons, Gary and Eric Bridgham. The house on Mill Street where last Saturday's party was held now belongs to daughter Judy, who bought it from brother Eric, who bought it from his parents. The house, as Eric ,explains, "has become the family homestead."
In fact, when Charlie and Jane bought the house on Mill Street in 1979, the Curry family lived next door. The Bridgham's and Curry's are cousins.
When Charlie was approximately 40 years old, he began taking judo lessons at the Attleboro YMCA. Since that time, he has inspired several of his children to also take judo and even founded his own judo school at the old Pratt School in East Foxboro.
For the past 35 years, San Machi has been home to the Foxboro Judo Club. Currently the club has several Senseis including Bridgham and Bob Anton who runs it.
At the party were some of Bridgham's former judo students including Sara Jobin and her brother Andy Jobin. Sara started taking lessons first, but when she came home after judo class and started flipping her brother around the house, Andy quickly decided he better start taking lessons too. According to Sara, "He [Charlie] taught us so much more than judo. He taught us how to behave, be respectful and be a good person."
Al and Bill Rollins are two of Bridgham's nephews. Both shared several memories of their Uncle Charlie. Al Rollins remembers how as a boy he always liked planes and when his Uncle Charlie returned home, they both joined the Civil Air Patrol. Bill Rollins adds, "My uncle is a combination of Clark Kent and Harrison Ford. Mild-mannered on the surface with lots of adventure underneath."
Both talked about their uncle the golfer. Al explains, "Uncle Charlie plays golf too. He says he doesn't lose the balls anymore because they don't go far enough and if he does hit a ball too far, it's no good because then he can't see it."
Al still lives in New England up in Vermont, the state where his uncle and mother were born. Bill lives out on the west coast in California.
Sadly, Bridgham has been without his wife for 20 years. They were married for more than 40 years before her death. He now enjoys sharing his life with a close friend, Ann Parlato, who he met at a family wedding.
Speaking of family, Bridgham has five children, eleven grandchildren, four great grandchildren and several nieces and nephews.
When one of his many guests told him he looked wonderful, Bridgham responded with a smile, "I am wonderful!"
And he is.
Link: http://www.foxbororeporter.com/articles/2011/07/22/features/9910923.txt
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Sunday, October 17, 2010
6 Coventry Place, Sandwich, MA
Today we took “Gramma” by her old house today. Thought we’d show Charity were Gramma lived for many of the years of her life and where we used to come and visit her often. A special time for Charity and I, though she doesn’t remember it, is when she and I came and stayed a week with Gramma after her husband passed away. It was March, but we got the stroller out and would take walks each day and keep Gramma company as she prepared for another chapter in her life, moving up to Maine with us.
So here it is, Gramma. Awful, isn’t it?
This house used to be a cute little cape, before she sold it in 2004. If I were at home, I’d show the before and after pictures. We knew they had plans of making it a two story home. But it looked just hideous, with cars being worked on in the driveway, junk all around, complete with a gentleman bent over working on an engine . . . much needing to pull up his pants. Yikes. And my reason for not getting a real great picture.
Well, that made it a little easier to move on from there.
But it’s hard being on the Cape. The place Gramma lived and loved. She loved the Tennessee weather, but missed the ocean.
We drove down to Coast Guard beach, where she is to be scattered. The ocean just has this thing, it’s very emotional. Dave and I have both agreed this is going to be a lot harder than we thought. So after we found a hotel and got some dinner this evening, we went and got ourselves some tissues for tomorrow . . . because, we know we’re going to need them.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Grandma & I
Had a little melt down today . . . saw a white-haired lady walking out of Pizza Hut holding hands will a bouncy little girl dressed in pink from her rubber rain boots to the tippy top of her umbrella. Made me miss Gramma, and for Charity. :( Ouch.
But overall things are getting better. When my mind thinks of Gramma, it is starting to adjust. I don't have the gut-wrenching pain in my chest like it just happened when she comes to my mind. But instead my brain tells me, it's okay, Diana. She's not here, she's happy with Jesus. It still hurts, but we're making progress.
Still miss you so, Gramma!
Monday, October 4, 2010
Adjustments
It's been a week. A very long week. But thank the Lord we've made it through a week.
Gramma, I think we've figured out a morning schedule that will work for the 3 of us. You're right. Charity eats more in front of the TV, so we've moved the sofa table you bought her upstairs and now our "No food in the family room" rule is gone. But whatever it takes to make a smoother morning and get something in Charity's belly. You knew. I pray that God gives us the wisdom you had. You knew just what to do with Charity and what worked best for her, because you love her so much.
And burrrr . . . is it cold. Low 50's this morning when Charity and I left for school. We knew you never liked these chilly temperatures and felt so trapped in Maine, because of all the snow. But you "escaped" this cold weather just in time! Lucky! But by the end of the week, it shouldn't be so bad. See if you can work out something up there so our winter's not that bad . . . and I'll promise to take Charity out more than I normally would! :) You'd be proud: Dave or I take her out every day. And she's been riding her bike with us when we jog. We can only do about 2 miles, but that's a lot for her little legs! Gramma, we love and miss you so much!
Gramma, I think we've figured out a morning schedule that will work for the 3 of us. You're right. Charity eats more in front of the TV, so we've moved the sofa table you bought her upstairs and now our "No food in the family room" rule is gone. But whatever it takes to make a smoother morning and get something in Charity's belly. You knew. I pray that God gives us the wisdom you had. You knew just what to do with Charity and what worked best for her, because you love her so much.
And burrrr . . . is it cold. Low 50's this morning when Charity and I left for school. We knew you never liked these chilly temperatures and felt so trapped in Maine, because of all the snow. But you "escaped" this cold weather just in time! Lucky! But by the end of the week, it shouldn't be so bad. See if you can work out something up there so our winter's not that bad . . . and I'll promise to take Charity out more than I normally would! :) You'd be proud: Dave or I take her out every day. And she's been riding her bike with us when we jog. We can only do about 2 miles, but that's a lot for her little legs! Gramma, we love and miss you so much!
Friday, October 1, 2010
A New Routine
We’re trying to figure this out. All life’s little changes. Pick up all the amazing things Gramma did. Charity went down there every morning for breakfast. Monday through Friday before school. Saturday when I was sleeping in or out early doing errands. Sunday when Dave and I were busy with church activities. Charity was hanging at Gramma’s getting a yummy start to her day.
Tuesday and Wednesday morning, Dave and Charity went down for breakfast at Gramma’s. And then since we had to bring all the food up . . . which was incredibly hard. Who knew we’d have a breakdown cleaning out the fridge. Or carrying her cookies upstairs to our pantry. The last bag of lettuce she bought. Her candy. The crackers she always had on hand. Gramma had things well stocked. But she’s always had such a mouse and pest problem in the past, so we were worried without a lot going on down there, they might take over. Thursday Dave moved the “breakfast routine” upstairs to our kitchen. Of course, Charity adjusted no problem. I can’t even get over how resistant this kid is. Gramma probably prayed that she be okay with this all, that’s something she would have done.
Today is Dave’s first day back to work. So our plan is to keep our routine about the same. Dave will get her breakfast, then he’ll head up to work and I’ll continue getting ready, leaving Charity downstairs for about 45 minutes by herself enjoying her breakfast and watching Curious George as she did at Gramma’s.
She did ok. But it was bothering me. Ouch. She’s down their all alone, when I’m getting ready and she used to have Gramma waiting on her hand and foot. We’ve got to figure something out.
So I asked her when she came up at 7:30am to get her hair done, “Charity, do you like being downstairs by yourself? Are you okay?”
Her reply, “No, but it’s what I have to do.”
Oh, I love her. She was ok, she knows it’s just how life’s going to be. I can learn a lot from her. But I’m going to try and figure out this routine, so she’s not alone, at least not during the time she was usually with Gramma. Someway, somehow . . . we’ll figure it out. It’s what we have to do.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Getting There
Oh, it's working! It's not getting easier; just more accustom to the stinging pain. My brain actually feels like it's starting to work again. It's thinking beyond the pain, which is good.
I know Gramma's having a beautiful day in Heaven. It's absolutely beautiful here in Nashville today. Mid 70's. Dave's been meeting me and taking me to lunch the past couple days. Today we went to The Picnic Cafe for the first time. It was so girl-y, quaint, with a big selection of baked goods to choose from and we both thought the same thing: "Mom would like this place." I'm sure she's enjoying a lovely picnic of her own today! It's been so nice to have these little breaks during the day with Dave, we both catch up on our feelings and he lets me know what he's accomplished for the day. Tomorrow Dave goes back to work, but I think he's ready. He's got much of the loose ends tied up. I guess it will good to develop some sort of a regular routine. But I will miss him. I won't work a full day tomorrow to help adjust, next week we'll see what I can do.
Dave felt to call the doctor today to get more closure on what actually happened Monday. He was worried that Mom had suffered. But all signs appear as no. The doctor believes it was probably her heart, as we all suspected. And because she passed during the cat scan, it shows there were no blockages or eruption of her intestines, which would have been a very painful ending for Mom. Not the case, it was very quick and painless. Just what Mom wanted, probably exactly what she prayed for Sunday night when she was at alter for prayer. Heal me completely or take me.
I am coming to grip with her time with Charity. I just long she could have had more years. But Dave and I have discussed how 7 is God's number of completion. Gramma had 7 years with Charity. And though I would like 10 more and 10 more and 10 more on top of that. I have to accept God's will and know that Gramma is happier and pain-free. It is just so hard and hard to explain in words. I had Charity "for" Mom. I love Charity, but I wasn't planning to have children until God changed my heart because of Mom's prayers and her desire. Though she never said a word to me, she took all her supplications to the Lord. I tell the Lord, I knew I couldn't do this on my own, I did this for Gramma. She has always been there for me and helped me with Charity. I'm trying not be selfish, but I feel bad for Charity. I will never be the sweet and loving soul Gramma was to her. I LOVE her so much, but Gramma, that's some big soft slippers to fill! I trust God will give me strength and know He does ALL things WELL.
Since my brain has decided to start working again, I must return to my work. I think it's taken me all week to do 2 hours of work. I am so thankful my boss is on vacation and I have the entire office to myself for my frequent tear breaks, multiple phone calls and constant spacing out! I promised him I'd have it all together when he returned next Tuesday . . . I hope I do. With God's help!
I know Gramma's having a beautiful day in Heaven. It's absolutely beautiful here in Nashville today. Mid 70's. Dave's been meeting me and taking me to lunch the past couple days. Today we went to The Picnic Cafe for the first time. It was so girl-y, quaint, with a big selection of baked goods to choose from and we both thought the same thing: "Mom would like this place." I'm sure she's enjoying a lovely picnic of her own today! It's been so nice to have these little breaks during the day with Dave, we both catch up on our feelings and he lets me know what he's accomplished for the day. Tomorrow Dave goes back to work, but I think he's ready. He's got much of the loose ends tied up. I guess it will good to develop some sort of a regular routine. But I will miss him. I won't work a full day tomorrow to help adjust, next week we'll see what I can do.Dave felt to call the doctor today to get more closure on what actually happened Monday. He was worried that Mom had suffered. But all signs appear as no. The doctor believes it was probably her heart, as we all suspected. And because she passed during the cat scan, it shows there were no blockages or eruption of her intestines, which would have been a very painful ending for Mom. Not the case, it was very quick and painless. Just what Mom wanted, probably exactly what she prayed for Sunday night when she was at alter for prayer. Heal me completely or take me.
I am coming to grip with her time with Charity. I just long she could have had more years. But Dave and I have discussed how 7 is God's number of completion. Gramma had 7 years with Charity. And though I would like 10 more and 10 more and 10 more on top of that. I have to accept God's will and know that Gramma is happier and pain-free. It is just so hard and hard to explain in words. I had Charity "for" Mom. I love Charity, but I wasn't planning to have children until God changed my heart because of Mom's prayers and her desire. Though she never said a word to me, she took all her supplications to the Lord. I tell the Lord, I knew I couldn't do this on my own, I did this for Gramma. She has always been there for me and helped me with Charity. I'm trying not be selfish, but I feel bad for Charity. I will never be the sweet and loving soul Gramma was to her. I LOVE her so much, but Gramma, that's some big soft slippers to fill! I trust God will give me strength and know He does ALL things WELL.
Since my brain has decided to start working again, I must return to my work. I think it's taken me all week to do 2 hours of work. I am so thankful my boss is on vacation and I have the entire office to myself for my frequent tear breaks, multiple phone calls and constant spacing out! I promised him I'd have it all together when he returned next Tuesday . . . I hope I do. With God's help!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Isn't this supposed to get easier?
I don't really know what's going on. We're on day 2 since Gramma left for Heaven and I'm still dying inside. I keep asking myself how does one live after [a loved] one dies? I know it's possible. Just trying to stay strong and take one minute at a time. Wow! I know the cares of life will drag me down and schedules will fill, but I do appreciate the love for life and others and having correct priorities in prospective that this is teaching me. But why such a hard lesson? Wish I had figured it out a lot sooner.
I know I was having a rough day. Didn't sleep much last night and I'm sure the over tired state I'm in is not helping anything. Went down to Gramma's while Dave was taking Charity to school and like I've often done, I audibly called out "Mom." And I was sincerely praying inside she would come around the corner from her bedroom as she had so many times before and I would wake up from this awful nightmare. :'( It didn't happen.
Actually, my purpose in heading down there was to see what she had for laundry so I could wash it. So after I realized what I was supposed to do, I gathered some clothes she had and her basket of wash and set it on the stairs.
Dave and I both have been completely avoiding "the bag" the funeral home gave us of her belongings. He did take her library book out and we have returned all the books she had checked out. Since I was doing her laundry, I figured I'd go ahead and tackle it. Just a small plastic bag stuffed with a few items, how could it be so daunting?
We had already set her glasses and watch on the counter. Ouch. First thing I pulled out was her shoes. Breakdown. Sobbing. I carried them into her bedroom and set them on her closet floor and that's when I heard her say, "Diana, I got new shoes!" knowing how much I appreciate SHOES!!! Oh, it blessed my heart. It was so real. It is hard to explain if you haven't been in this place. And Dave and I are trying to explain that to Charity. It's like you hear her in your heart, not your ears.
Clinging to the happy thought, I was able to complete the task of "the bag". And I know Mom would be so proud of me. Actually, she would say chuck it all, but I'm not there yet. I took out her skirt and slip and put it in the wash basket. Not sure what happened with the shirt she had on Monday, but it wasn't in the bag. The final items that remained were her panties and stockings and with Mom's "help" I threw them away!! She would be so proud! I told Dave when he returned home and we both chuckled. You just can't imagine how hard it is, until you've been to this place. Those items, nothing I would usually want anything to do with, become so "special". They were what she had on her last day here.
But, I do know it will get more bearable with time. Probably never easy, but the good memories and the kind thoughts and prayers of friends and family are helping so much.
Gramma, I know you were never into "things". It was all just stuff to you. You would say throw it all away. I'll get there, with time. And so it reminds me of the verse that changed your life, Ecclesiastes 2:11. I LOVE YOU, GRAMMA and am still learning from you daily!!
I know I was having a rough day. Didn't sleep much last night and I'm sure the over tired state I'm in is not helping anything. Went down to Gramma's while Dave was taking Charity to school and like I've often done, I audibly called out "Mom." And I was sincerely praying inside she would come around the corner from her bedroom as she had so many times before and I would wake up from this awful nightmare. :'( It didn't happen.
Actually, my purpose in heading down there was to see what she had for laundry so I could wash it. So after I realized what I was supposed to do, I gathered some clothes she had and her basket of wash and set it on the stairs.
Dave and I both have been completely avoiding "the bag" the funeral home gave us of her belongings. He did take her library book out and we have returned all the books she had checked out. Since I was doing her laundry, I figured I'd go ahead and tackle it. Just a small plastic bag stuffed with a few items, how could it be so daunting?
We had already set her glasses and watch on the counter. Ouch. First thing I pulled out was her shoes. Breakdown. Sobbing. I carried them into her bedroom and set them on her closet floor and that's when I heard her say, "Diana, I got new shoes!" knowing how much I appreciate SHOES!!! Oh, it blessed my heart. It was so real. It is hard to explain if you haven't been in this place. And Dave and I are trying to explain that to Charity. It's like you hear her in your heart, not your ears.
Clinging to the happy thought, I was able to complete the task of "the bag". And I know Mom would be so proud of me. Actually, she would say chuck it all, but I'm not there yet. I took out her skirt and slip and put it in the wash basket. Not sure what happened with the shirt she had on Monday, but it wasn't in the bag. The final items that remained were her panties and stockings and with Mom's "help" I threw them away!! She would be so proud! I told Dave when he returned home and we both chuckled. You just can't imagine how hard it is, until you've been to this place. Those items, nothing I would usually want anything to do with, become so "special". They were what she had on her last day here.
But, I do know it will get more bearable with time. Probably never easy, but the good memories and the kind thoughts and prayers of friends and family are helping so much.
Gramma, I know you were never into "things". It was all just stuff to you. You would say throw it all away. I'll get there, with time. And so it reminds me of the verse that changed your life, Ecclesiastes 2:11. I LOVE YOU, GRAMMA and am still learning from you daily!!
Ecclesiastes 2
Pleasures Are Meaningless
Pleasures Are Meaningless
1. I thought in my heart, "Come now, I will test you with pleasure to find out what is good." But that also proved to be meaningless. 2. "Laughter," I said, "is foolish. And what does pleasure accomplish?" 3. I tried cheering myself with wine, and embracing folly—my mind still guiding me with wisdom. I wanted to see what was worthwhile for men to do under heaven during the few days of their lives.
4. I undertook great projects: I built houses for myself and planted vineyards. 5. I made gardens and parks and planted all kinds of fruit trees in them. 6. I made reservoirs to water groves of flourishing trees. 7. I bought male and female slaves and had other slaves who were born in my house. I also owned more herds and flocks than anyone in Jerusalem before me. 8. I amassed silver and gold for myself, and the treasure of kings and provinces. I acquired men and women singers, and a harem [a] as well—the delights of the heart of man. 9. I became greater by far than anyone in Jerusalem before me. In all this my wisdom stayed with me.
10. I denied myself nothing my eyes desired;
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my work,
and this was the reward for all my labor.
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my work,
and this was the reward for all my labor.
11. Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Breakfast with Jesus
Dave’s taking most of this week off and though we don’t have funeral arrangements to prepare, as Gramma didn’t wish for that, he’s got lots of “stuff” to do. We’re trying to keep Charity’s routine the same, so he brought her down to “Gramma’s” for breakfast and they ate her food. When she came up at her normal 7:30am to finish getting ready for school, I asked Charity if she missed Gramma. She responded, “No.” As I was sobbing inconsolably. Kids. They’re so resilient. I think they just don’t understand the gap caused by a loss. But as an adult we can see what Charity will miss over the year. Nevertheless, we believe that Charity’s peace is probably just another result of Gramma’s prayers. I’m sure she thought of this. And prayed protection for Charity’s heart and mind.
Flashback to 9.27.2010: Dave and I both decided to pick up Charity yesterday from school, since I didn’t feel I could do it myself. We brought Gramma’s car, since I had told her Gramma was picking her up, I wanted her to at least see the right car, which Dave and I had retrieved from the Oncology Center where Gramma had parked it that morning. I made him drive it home. We talked on our cell phones the whole way home. The alone silence is so hard. And when it was time to pick up Charity from school, just seeing a piece of Gramma hair started a stream of emotions. :'(
Such a beautiful day, Monday was. The beautiful blue skies, finally cooler weather. Gramma definitely would have been sitting outside enjoying it. Reading her bible, doing her devotions on the back patio in her green chair with the sun shining on her. She loved this weather.
Our plan was to sit down with Charity in the living room and explaining what had happened. But Charity wanted to go outside. So we moved our discussion to the back porch. As a kid, you just know something’s up. So as Dave fumbled around to find the right words, Charity burst into tears. “You mean Gramma died?” Her little heart. It broke mine, again. She cried for a few minutes. We all decided to go to Gramma’s place and look at the “Grandma Remembers” book she has been working on for Charity. We had given her this book when we told her we were pregnant. We actually wrapped it in a baby blanket and gave it to her for Christmas that year as the way of telling her. That’s a day none of us will ever forget! That book is so full of everything. Charity is going to love and cherish it. Gramma kept a journal of important dates in it. We flipped through it, but barely scratched the surface of all the love flowing through it. Yet another of Gramma’s selfless acts. And a reminder to me to keep up the blog. Gramma loved it and I know it will bless Charity someday. Gramma knew where the priorities were. These are things that live on, not the clean house or the neatly folded laundry. But the things you do for your family. I need to and will try harder.
Gramma, I hope you’re enjoying your first breakfast with Jesus. I hope Heaven’s got those good kind of donuts we like. The kind Dunkin Donuts has. Eat as many as you want! And the yummy muffins. The ones we used to get at Hannaford with the cinnamon chips or the butterscotch chips. Those ones that had at least a stick of butter in each muffin! And fresh fruit. I’m sure it’s the best fruit ever! Miss you so much. And though Charity says she didn’t, you and I both know she does. Can’t wait to join you for breakfast someday. For now, I’m off to work. It will be hard, but I know you would want us to continue on our normal routine. And just sitting around here makes me miss you so much. Chris flies to England for the Ryder Cup today, so I need to know what I’m supposed to do while he’s gone. I know if you were here, I’d go downstairs and find you watching it. You liked watching golf. Probably reminded you of Dave O. I LOVE YOU, GRAMMA. Enjoy your first full day in Heaven!
9.27.2010 – The Day Gramma Went to be with Jesus
My heart hurts. It’s so unbelievably heavy right now. But I just know how much Gramma loved this blog, and I’m just foolish enough to think she’ll still see it. So I felt that if I could just get down what I’m feeling, maybe, somehow it will help some of the hurt.
I can’t even begin. Gramma. She was amazing. As we look back over her life, just one word comes to mind, SELFLESS. She lived every moment of her life for us, Dave, myself and especially her granddaughter, Charity, who was so precious to her. She was such a good, sweet-spirited, kind and quiet soul. She has such a close relationship with the Lord each day and the Lord showed her mercy to her final day her on earth.
We knew things had been getting worse with her cancer. She has no energy, unable to take her walks and this weekend, even struggling to eat comfortably, but never expected this, not this fast. Monday morning. This morning, like every school morning, Charity and I go about our regular routine. Things have been hectic in the mornings, so I set my alarm earlier than normal as to give us more time. Each morning, I get up, then Charity gets up following me and she gets dressed. After she’s dressed she heads down to Gramma’s for breakfast. I hesitated to allow her to go down this morning, because all weekend Gramma was in pain in her stomach and I knew she had an early morning appointment. But Gramma has urged me that it’s fine for Charity to come down, no problem at all, she sets her up with her food and does what she needs to do.
I never saw Gramma at home that morning. Charity came up at 7:30am as she usually does for me to do her hair and we proceeded with our routine. Hair, teeth and then off to school. Since I had gotten up earlier, Charity was plenty early for school, rather than running in at the last minute. I dropped her off, happy and continued about my day. She gets stressed out when her routine gets off. So she asked me, “Who’s picking me up?” I reassured her Gramma would be, as usual.
As I drove into the subdivision, I passed Gramma leaving for her scheduled cat scan. Usually I’m “flying”, running behind, headed back home to finish preparing myself for the day before I head off to work. But this morning, I was enjoying, going the speed limit, rather leisurely heading back home. I appreciate the Lord for that. As we passed our eyes met and we gave each other a wave. And I was thanking God for her, that wave, it blessed me. I was thinking how blessed I am to have her and that she fed Charity, even though I know she wasn’t feeling good, she had someplace to be, but even to the end she selflessly gave herself for us. Little did I know, that sweet wave Gramma gave me was the last time I would see her. I waved “good-bye” to her.
Oh, had I known the circumstances that would transpire after that. I would have stopped that car. I would have hugged her neck. I would have never let go. But God knew. He knew in His infinite mercy, she did not want to suffer. She did not want to be a burden to us as she worsened and would be unable to care for herself.
When Dave called me at work, broken, he explained the doctor had called. I didn’t want to believe it. I still don’t want to believe it. Honestly, I hate it. She was having her scheduled cat scan to see what, if anything her chemo was doing and they found her nonresponsive. They rushed her across the street from the oncology center where she was to the hospital emergency room and tried to resuscitate her. They were able to get a little heartbeat, but only for a second. Gramma was already worshipping around the throw! She wasn’t coming back. She was home free.
Oh, my heart. Gramma, I know how happy you are now and pain-free. But I don’t know how I’m going to do this without you. I LOVE YOU, GRAMMA. I know I’m being selfish. Everyday you helped me so much. You completely lived your life for this family. You exemplified the true ministry of a goodly mother in how you lived for your “children”. You never once treated me as an “in-law”. I was always “your daughter”. I love how when we moved here to Tennessee from Maine, people often thought you were my “real” mom, not Dave’s. You were our strength when we were weak. You listened to my rambling and raving, even yesterday, Sunday, as I babbled on and on about this crazy week, you listened caringly. Even agreeing to keeping Charity for a date night I wanted to have on Friday or Saturday evening. I would easily say, you care for Charity about 80% of the time, if not more. And my little C, how will she live without her Gramma? You are so good with her. And you do all those fun crafts and play office and school and take her outside. How am I going to fill those shoes? Speaking of shoes, how can I continue my 1/2 marathon training? You were such an inspiration. You and your 10 minute mile! I don’t think I’ll ever get there. I don’t know that I’ll be able to run again. I think of you and all your encouragement you gave to Dave and I on running and being healthy. I LOVE YOU, GRAMMA. I pray you know that, I pray you know how much you meant to me. I pray you can see my heart and the gratefulness we all have for the time we had with you. They told us 12 years ago, you only had a year. And we were blessed with such good years with you here in Tennessee, 5 years. But it doesn’t seem like enough. I want you back. I want you to see Charity cheer her next game. Her next girl scout outing. I want you to be there when we run the 1/2 marathon. I want you to see Charity start high school and all the memories she makes through the years. I want you to be part of them. I LOVE YOU, GRAMMA. I really wish I would have told you everyday. Dave assures me you knew. But I want to tell you again and again. I wish I would have spent more time down there, at your place, just being with you and hearing you talk. I have learned so much from you. I just LOVE you so much and want you back. But I know God had a plan and I guess I have no other option, but to accept that, though it’s killing me. My heart is so heavy. We now understand when you told about losing your husband, Dave O. The void. The emptiness. The place in your heart for only that loved one.
My only peace is that this life is just a vapor. We’re only passing through. It’s not about here, but there, there in heaven with the One who created us. And I can’t wait to be there with you and Him.
MOM, I LOVE YOU.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Packing Lunch
I made the first heart-shaped cinnamon-bread-jelly-only sandwich this morning. Before I know it I’ll be counting down the days to packing the last lunch of this school year. My little lunch-muncher might be a little picky, but I don’t mind the challenge of putting together a lunch she’ll each each day. And in a few months, it will be a challenge!
Call me a crazy mom, but I love packing lunch!
Friday, August 13, 2010
The tooth fairy’s going to go broke . . .
This is the second tooth she’s lost this week!
I love that toothless grin!!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
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